"I had sailed the wrong stern, I had ran the wrong race.
Viewed the vile. Encouraged the carnal, and lived the lie.
And there I lay flat on my face with failure achieved 
and the forbidden fruit fictionalized.
But it was in that moment that I crawled out of myself.
People astonished, confused.
Unknowing of another inside, I climbed out."
-Journal entry Aug. 12, 2012